It’s been a few months so I’ll
catch you up on “what’s new with Jess”. I graduated! That was such a relief.
Although sometimes I feel like the same feeling as when I got my associates;
there is just more school ahead of me so I better not get too excited. I've
done my best to find a job, but it hasn't come yet. I decided, rather the
Spirit told me, to get my butt to the temple and pray because the Lord had some
things He wanted to tell me. I went yesterday. While sitting in the room
waiting for it to start I told myself to be completely open minded. No matter
what the Lord was going to tell me, I’d accept it. Ha. (if you know me that goes against everything I am). Back to the original story, after I was felt the Spirit, I
immediately started to cry. Not just the one single tear rolling gently and
eloquently down my perfectly shapen face. No, this was while crying, thinking
in my head to the ladies sitting next to me, “please don’t hear me, please don’t hear me…and if you do hear me, don’t talk to me.” (no one talked to me, so I guess my thoughts worked, or they just felt awkward and decided to let me "cry it out"...I'll go with they didn't hear me) I also felt from the Spirit not to worry about the future. (this is
something I struggle with daily). The quote that came to my head was something when said by a friend, aka Mike I get annoyed, even angry, but when I came from God, I believed it.
“Just do
your best, everything will work out.”
I hate it when people (Mike) say(s) that because it
seems like a thing to say to get out of a conversation, but when God said that,
I knew it was true. All He asks is for me to do my best. He will always take
care of me. Always. So, for the first time in a long time, I’m not planning my
future year by year. I’m not even planning it month by month. I have some very
open plans for my future, but I have no idea if they’ll work out. For whatever
reason, that makes me smile.
Here goes nothing…
